Well its been a while since I've even used my account, its good to get some inspiration and get on.
Hmm I hope I can write more tonite I really feel poetic right now. Well Stargate come on at 9 I better go pick up my bf! <3

I got my computer working again so there are more pictures up. I hope everyone is doing well.
Well im gonna go write a poem.
Had a shit day yesterday. Dad went pyshco.
Fuck shitty days.
have a good day.
pce.

Is your hair up?:
Nope



Is your phone right beside you?:
Its inches away



Do you have a bf/ gf?:
Kyle<3





Do you wish you were somewhere else?:
Yess





Do you have plans for tonight?:
Studying and WoW/talking to my b/f



Are you wearing makeup?:
Nope





Are you wearing chapstick?:
No





Are you cold?:
im good





Are you tired?:
No


Are you excited?:
Not exactly





Are you watching t.v?:
no




Are you wearing pajamas?:
No plaid capris


Who's the last person you IMed?:
I dont use IM




Who's the last person that called you?
My dad





Anything you regret?
eating candy




Ever lied?:
who hasn't



Ever stuck gum under a desk?:
ohh yes



Ever spit at someone?
Kyle hehe



Ever kick something living?:
Muh b/f



Ever had your nails done?:
Yes and i love it so much but i can't with my job





Ever thrown up because you cried so hard?:
Yes but not because of crying


REVEAL A LITTLE ABOUT YOURSELF:
Um im Sarah Jane and im 19 from CT.

Had any plans last week?:
I went to a Pearl Jam concert and blew shit up for July 4



Who did you see most last week?:
my babe



Was last week interesting?
pretty much





Have you cussed?:
Constantly



Have you yelled at someone?
yes of course





Have you gotten mad at someone?
yeps




Have you cried?
suree






Have you called more than 3 people?:
On skype



Have you IMed more than 3 people?:
when i used to use AIM





Have you eaten anything gross?
sure i have


SPILL YOUR GUTS


Q.First thing you did this morning?:
signed on to my compy to play WoW






Q.Last thing you ate?:
Red Bull



Q.What's something you look forward to most in the next 6 weeks?
Getting my CNA and my one year anniversary with my babe





Q.What's annoying you right now?
my gut



Q.What's the last movie you saw?
umm Sherribaby



Q.Do you believe in long distance relationships?:
Nope





Q Where is the last place you went?:
the gas station



Q: Who is the last person you called?:
my baby or my dad



Q: Been cheated on?:
not to my knowlegde....




Q: Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
i'd like to hope so but no



Q: Choose one to have (love, beauty, creativity):
always love



Q: Do you wish on stars?
yes



Q: Does it work?:
im not sure if the stars did it



Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?:
noo





Q: When did you last cry?
yesterday probally




Q: Do you like your handwriting?
sure y not





Q: Are you a friendly person?
I hope so



Q: Are you keeping a secret from the world?
yeah





Q: Who's bed did you sleep in last night?
my own




Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
maroon tank


Q: Do you have any pets?
lots of kitties!!

Q: What is the color of your bedsheets?
light green



Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?
playing WoW


Q: last person you talked to:
dad



Q: When is the last time you saw your dad? like 10 mins ago


Q: Look to your left:
table with drugs on it


Q: Ever cried yourself to sleep?
sure




Q: Ever cried on your friends shoulder?
sure




Q: Song that makes you cry?
idk alot



Q: Are you a normally happy person?
i am and then im not




Q: Is your self-esteem low?
pretty rock bottom



Q: What color are your eyes?
light brown



Q: Long or Short Hair :
medium





Q: Current Music?
nothing now

I am afraid of...

[x ] the dark
[x ] staying single forever
x] being a parent
[x] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[x] closed spaces
[X] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[X] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants

Total so far: 7

[ ] being touched
[x ] deep water
[x] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[x ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[x ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[x ] rats
[x ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow

Total so far: 13 shit im scared of alot of stuff!!

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[x ] crossing hanging bridges
[x ] death
[ ] heaven
[x ] being robbed
[x ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x ] having great responsibilities
[] doctors, including dentists
[x ] tornadoes

Total so far: 19 shiit

[ ] hurricanes
[x ] incurable diseases
[x ] sharks
[x ] Friday the 13th
[x ] ghosts
[x ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x ] being alone
[x ] becoming blind
[X] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up

Total so far: 27

[x ] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[x ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[x ] needles
[ ] blood
[x ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[x ] super secrets

Final Total: 32

f you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are liars.

... if you wish to post this in your journal, it's been requested that you title it I'm afraid of _ out of 72 common fears...

I guess I need to go back and get some more shinks to talk to. Im a freeeak

Im sorry dad. Im sorry I said I hated you. Im sorry that I wrote that poem that mean poem about you. Im sorry you pissed me off. Im sorry that I let you get to me. Im just pissed you had to get drunk like that. That you embarressed me in front of that whole party. I just wish you were different dad. I wish you weren't who you are. And im sorry that I wish that. I just want you to be a dad. Instead of being like my son. Im not your fucking mother. Im not your fucking wife. I can't keep your ass in line. I hate that you need me. I can't be there for you. I can't hold your hand anymore. Its breaking me down. Just stop. For me.