Im just going to keep on pretending
That im not a pyscho
That i'm noone
That i'm just a person
Who keeps on pretending
Im just going to stop hurting you
With my actions
And dont' you know i've learned every que?
Im just going to stop hurting myself
But I can't and I won't
And i dont want to
I want to starve and get smaller
I want a knife so I can cut deeper
But I want to say everything that I can't
Everything that hurts but I cant
I want to cut the shit and come clean
I want to say everything that I mean
But baby im sick of being this way
And there is no other way
Just ask me why I keep on crying
Just hold me harder till I stop lying
I want to be your everything
But I can't even do anything
I need to stop this bullshit now
But there so much pain built from years and I don't know how
I love you dear and don't you know
I couldnt bear to loose you right now
Just hold me its better when you do that
I lay and calm down and like a candle you can blow me out.